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| no computer/internet
no telephone
no social life unless branddon (my neighbor) counts
i am SO fucking bored with life
i need a job, a car, my own house.. and a life | | |
| i'm still alive just so everyone knows
i get on the computer about, twice a week now
we no longer have one at home and it's pretty fucking lame
anyway, wanna talk to me?
call me
if you don't know my number, then.. find it =]
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| lately, i've had so many ideas in my head.
i want to share them with someone, but no one's here to share them with.
and, no one here (meaning statesville) would understand. they'd laugh.
also-
i'm tired of being the back-up friend.
i'm not doing it anymore.
i've done it for the past three fucking years. and i'm done.
if you can't hang out with any of your other friends, and you come to me, you're a doucheee.
okay?
i'm seriously not doing this anymore.
i want out.
really bad & right now.
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| i'm not moving to hickory anymore.
i could possibly be moving to georgia.
and then, in two years, i'm going to california.
i'm super tired of statesville.
and i'm super tired of the people here.
i don't have many friends here, and the ones i do have.. i see about once every week or every other week.
i'm tired of life.
it's boring and routine.
whatever.
i'm just ready to get the fuck out of here. | | |
| this is just going to be complaining- thought i'd warn you all now
i'm tired of being here, in statesville
i'm tired of all the two-faced bitches and bastards
i'm tired of always being lied to about everything
i'm tired of my dad thinking that me getting a job is going to solve every fucking financial problem he has
sure, i'll be able to pay my own cell phone bill, but i'm not going to give him money to live in this house
i take care of my brother, i cook, i clean, i do everything for his ass
i'm tired of boys and feelings
i'm tired of feeling like i mean nothing to anyone
.. people have to lie to me about that, too
so, what i want:
to move to hickory.. NOW
to rid myself of all feelings or, alternatively, for someone to care about me the way i care about every fucking human on this planet- even if i shouldn't
to get friends that won't lie to me, stab me in the back, or talk shit about me
for my dad to fix his own financial problems and make me stop feeling like it's all my fault sorry to bitch, because i know for sure people have it worse than me
but.. i'm so sick of everything right now | | |
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